Tears Are Flowing

We went to court today for the kids annual foster care review hearing.  It was so short that I ended up missing the whole thing.  I dropped Marty off at the front door and by the time I parked and walked in, Marty was walking out. 

As we were driving around Alexandria, I couldn't help scanning the sidewalk for the kids' bio mom.  The odds were astronimical that we would run in to her on the street, but it had happened before.

There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about her.  I wonder what she is doing, how she feels and if she misses the kids.  I pray that the pain of separation is lessened by God's loving grace.  I hope that she knows that we are doing the best we can by her children.  Mostly, I just wonder about her.

I had a dream the other night that DSS called us because Brown Mommy had another baby that needed a home.  I sometimes wonder if that will ever happen.  I find myself worrying about these phantom children.

So after all this thought and reflection on my kids' bio mom, I am scanning mommyblogs to unwind.  On Child of Mine, Faithful Mommy has put a link to a Mark Schultz song.  The tears were flowing while I watched the video. Take a look and see if you have a dry eye.