Yesterday, I tragically lost my best friend. Suddenly, without warning she and her wonderful son were taken from us. I feel like I am standing on the shore as a tidal wave of grief is towering overhead waiting to break. There are no words to describe the loss that has been forced upon us. We will never be whole again.
Jean, I loved you like a sister. As we used to say, you were the sister that God didn't give me. You were my touchstone and my sage adviser. You were my clown around friend who would drag me on road trips, despite my protests. You showed me how to be a good mother and what was important versus what to let go of. You told me time and time again that it is more important to have a happy family than a clean house. I can not imagine my life without you and yet you are gone.
Jim, you were my foreshadowing of things to come with my own boys, you dear sweet boy. You were on the precipice of manhood and oh what a rouge charmer you were becoming. You always had time for the little ones and just being around you made me happy.
There is a whole in my heart today. I love you both Sky Big!
UPDATE: I feel like this should make me feel a little better, but it doesn't. I really miss my friend. Little things keep happening that I want to tell her about, but...
